I think I will be blogging here less. That is, less than the less that I was already blogging here! That is because I think I have definitely taken some serious, if wavering - steps toward recovery. I feel a change. I don't know if others see a change, but for me it is very much there. Counselling sessions are different, recovery times are shorter, fights are less extreme. I drink less, I smoke much less.
These things are good! So - with the new turns come new places to write. I've started a journal at home, which will be personal, and I've started a new blog. Completely different take on things - just the blog of a normal, enthusiastic, alive and engaged person. I didn't want to go round that corner and stay here. It didn't feel right.
For a time I suppose I will return here, and make some comments/postings - but I'm not sure how long for. Everything has it's season, and this blog was a good vehicle for me to record and ponder over some stuff I had going on (not all of which is dealt with yet), but it was not something which I wished, for the most part, to share with personal friends and acquaintances, and in the end, that has started to feel weird. I want to participate more. I want to have my say, out loud. Not whispering and whimpering in the dark and cold, locked out of everyday interactions.
So, it's not goodbye completely, just yet - but it's quite possibly a wind down, or at least a change ....
Perhaps I will need to come back here sometime, or from time to time. I guess that's part of facing reality, and facing reality seems to be the only likely way to deal with it!
These things are good! So - with the new turns come new places to write. I've started a journal at home, which will be personal, and I've started a new blog. Completely different take on things - just the blog of a normal, enthusiastic, alive and engaged person. I didn't want to go round that corner and stay here. It didn't feel right.
For a time I suppose I will return here, and make some comments/postings - but I'm not sure how long for. Everything has it's season, and this blog was a good vehicle for me to record and ponder over some stuff I had going on (not all of which is dealt with yet), but it was not something which I wished, for the most part, to share with personal friends and acquaintances, and in the end, that has started to feel weird. I want to participate more. I want to have my say, out loud. Not whispering and whimpering in the dark and cold, locked out of everyday interactions.
So, it's not goodbye completely, just yet - but it's quite possibly a wind down, or at least a change ....
Perhaps I will need to come back here sometime, or from time to time. I guess that's part of facing reality, and facing reality seems to be the only likely way to deal with it!
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